Nothingness!!

                                      

What happens when you can feel your whole world crumbling slowly 

                   in front of your own eyes,

When your whole reality turns out to be a mirage that is dwindling 

                   and fading away in nothingness,

When someone's actions feel like a slap on your face and yet 

                   you can't do anything because you love them more than that....

And a new start!!

And there standing in the middle of crossroads 

she realized that it was not her from the start which she was chasing down.

 It was a far-fetched dream that was not her to dream of

and chasing it will continue breaking her down bit by bit.

And so what if it kills her from within to let it go, but doesn't it hurt more to hang in the middle of nowhere.

And that's when she decided to let go, to set herself free, to pick all the ripped pieces of her heart

And started a new journey 

And decided that she would never be someone's second choice again..

And then...

No, don't just tell me how your day was.Tell me about your little dreams and small aspirations that reside in that deep corner of your heart. That time when you wanted to be a footballer or an astronaut so that you can touch the moon, when your mom pulled your ears because you teased your little sister. When you and your friends planned a prank on your teacher in class 6th. When you cried after being left out by friends and sulked in that favorite hideout corner of yours. When you had your first crush and your first heartbreak, your favorite songs and the movies that you love. Your deep desire of doing something different and that dream which got buried in some corner of your heart, because of the pace of life. Talk to me about your views on life and love and anything you want. That special birthday present you got from your dad and that broken toy you still have in your drawer. Narrate me that story of your college friends and all the stupid things that you have done with them. And that stupid joke so that I can laugh till my belly aches. Tell me that big mistake you did or that guilt you have, and I will make sure you get rid of all those bad feelings. remember all your memories big or small, sweet or sour. Shed those silent tears and free yourself from all your fears. And in the middle of that deep conversation, crack that one-liner joke of yours.....

And then maybe I will start opening up!!

Just like that!!

Insecurities, they are the ugliest thing that you can live with.There are times when you ignore them and remain the happiest person on this earth and then comes a day when you feel like disappearing into your shell to protect yourself from these demons.